christmas?so what?

one of the least christmassy christmas i've ever had in my life

i did the usual thing and went and took pictures or pretty lights and happy couples walking along wearing weird ass christmas hats looking like idiots
but here are some nice chrismassy pictures anyways...



but then it felt so empty because suddenly it occured to me that christmas isnt how it used to be when i was a kid

back then i didnt have to do lots for a christmas, i'd be happy with a big meal and a few presents - time went by and views differed, even if i get showered by gifts it still means nothing nowadays, thats sad.

but then again, i had a funeral lined up so i guess thats where the sad bit came from

anyways, being the unique me that i am i went skating with some friends instead and damn sweet jesus im proud to announce that im getting a new laptop that works after xmas as Ive decided

'it shall be an apple'

intellectual dayzZ

there are days when u feel like doing jack all
days u feel empty and just wanna sleep
days u feel happy and wanna party
days u feel intelligent for who you are

it was one of those for me today(woohoo)

to show how strongly i felt my intelligent-ness should take me to another level of knowledge (and more intelligence...) i went to a book shop

after some time i picked out the following two books, adding to my own lil' library

addition number 1


"It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be."

i cannot stress how much i admire paul arden(author of this book, duh) for his ingenious ways of reasoning and best of it all - how he pulls it off with mountains of smaller reasons

on the other hand tho, i thought it kinda tied in with the whole reflective thinking and successful practice idea so it gave me an excuse to buy another book that is 'useful' seeing as my dad is so fed up with me buying all these books that he calls 'garbage' - well dad, u and i are very different species altogether...

i can't wait to start reading it to be completely honest

addition number 2

(i've failed to find a picture for it and can't be bothered to take and upload right now so deal with it)

'Tasteful Color Combination'

well you see, the problem with this book is that it isn't one that you read, it's one that you use for references. No, not ones that you refer to in your essays, ones that are for referencing.
that's right, its not really a readable book

its a book full of different color combinations - it's a book designers find very useful.
'The book features 14 chapters divided by different emotions (of major classifications), 46 different tastes that produce these emotions(intermediate classification), and a further 455 combinations of tastes'

so you see, it's more like a color combination bible that i'm sure will come in handy - it's just one of those things that stays useful for like, as long as you live

time to tuck into my new book, thank god for ur existence paul arden

skate on pt III

tho it may be holiday for me, but it certainly isn't the case with my camera
just went down to chill with some mates and did some shooting...its all good
but damn i wish santa knows i want a DV for christmas it'd be soooooo much better

end of term summary

click here for more pictures on
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14084&l=76d88&id=501853784

what a term -
tho we seem to be playing all the time we are hard workers who manage to put the fun back into work :) and make it look so easy

but it really isn't haha...

o yes its near christmas
so here's a little close up for this term

3 assignments -
1/ pixelation
2/ recording video
3/ interactive narrative

i had fun doing all 3, but then there's so much to put on the blog now its ridiculous!!!

my days

no internet at home gives so much trouble

i cant blog at home

gayness

but before long thy will be done

aha!

" r e f l e c t i o n "

"a set of abilities and skills, to indicate the taking of a critical stance, an orientation to problem solving or state of mind"
that means nothing to most people

but then...
there came a point of self-realization whereby suddenly you're hit by this 'thinge'...and you realize though you don't know exactly what it meant in 'english', the society has already walked you through it

in simpler terms, its 'trial and improvemen'
you do something wrong, you learn from your mistakes, pick up from where you went wrong until you get it right

everybody goes through this, and it seems more apparent to me now seeing as multimedia requires a lot of it
speaking from experiences so far, the 'pixelation' assignment has taken lots of trial and improvement -
if i had had more access to props i would've done my project a different way
my original idea was either somebody jumping on trampoline, making the 'legs off the ground' trick more flexible
i also had in mind the idea of having a big block of ice(or a fag, egg timer, something that represents the element of time) in the corner and having somebody doing things that were very effort-requiring, or grow old if i had had the access to complete make-up...showing how time has gone by indicated by the block of ice melting
but thats all in my mind

anyhow, reflecting on your own action is something everybody does and reminds me of being a kid

i'll end this blog by telling you what happened:

everybody does something that the parents are not happy with when young
and my mother invent such a thing called 'the reflecting hat'

a straw hat that was typically cow-boyish and frankly looked ridiculous

everytime i did something wrong, with a laughter, she'd say 'now go and sit in the corner with the reflecting hat'

i would then be left in a corner facing a wall wearing a hat like an idiot until she thinks it wasn't funny anymore

good memories

"the box that traps us all"

*so we've all been there, starting a new way of life*

you know, starting new courses, meeting new people, getting used to a new environment, so on...

the question is, how many of us do this on our own
without support?

the answer varies, of course - depends on how you interpret it i guess,

with people just given the opportunity as suppose to having to work hard for that single chance, have we considered, ever, that somethings wrong with the society?

the way in which we are brought up
the way we depend
the way we live, the way we act, the way we go about problems
ultimately, the way in how we think - the underlying logic behind the obvious thinking


has it been knocked into our heads that we must act in a certain way when problem arises? sets of chain reaction ironed into our minds?

i mean, whats the deal with "freedom"?

when we already know what goes ahead and why?